I totally steal my shit from Heather. She's got good ideas... sorry!
Bless me fellow bloggers for I have sinned:
Yesterday I skipped bands class-- BUT I ran on the treadmill at home
I have done maybe an hours worth of work all week.... and I don't know that I can force myself to do any today.
I have had to block myself from Twitter due to my Donnie Wahlberg obssession.... seriously I'm obsessed.. like a fucking 9 year old again.
This is a picture of Mr. Butts feeling the grass between his sweet baby toes for the first timeI stole this idea from Heather.. hope she doesn't mind!
This morning my phone rings at work. I see it's our home number so I figure it's BD... I was wrong:
Me: Hello
Zaber: Hello, Mommy. I want to play the violin, I am NOT going to play the piano
Me: OK?
Zaber: Mommy after I play the violin I'm going to play the plute
Me: OK, sounds good... and when are you going to do this?
Zaber: Mommy, after I play the plute, I'm going to play myself.
Me: OOOHHH KKKKKK
BD gets on phone: Hey, ha ha ha
Me: Where does he come up with this stuff?
BD: ha ha did you hear him say he was going to play himself.
Me: yup, just like you
BD and I have been discussing the idea of maybe trying for #4. BD really wants a girl. As Mr. Butts gets closer to turning 1 I realize that maybe, just maybe I don't want to be done having kids. It's really a tough decision. I feel as though I'm being selfish, plus the 3 that I have now drive me nuts as it is.
Then last night made me realize maybe I don't want to try for a girl. Last night BD found out his little sister is no longer a virgin. SIL (sister-in-law) is 18 years old. She's a very smart girl. She has her head on straight. BD is DEVASTATED he couldn't even talk. I personally didn't see the HUGE deal. I mean seriously she's 18, she used protection.. and like most of us girls find out it really wasn't all it's cracked up to be. She said it hurt and she has no plans on doing it again..... This got me thinking about us having a girl. If we do I'm afraid she'll turn into a whore because BD is going to keep her locked in a room as soon as she hits 16. Then when she goes nuts he's going to have a heart attack and then I'm going to be stuck with 3 boys and a slutty daughter..... oh what to do.
On Saturday BD and I went out with friends to celebrate my birthday... and celebrate we did. We had LOADS to drink. We haven't partied like that for at least 2 to 3 years. I now know why. I'm still paying for it today.
Getting old sucks.
Well today is it. Today I have officially **swallowing** entered the last year of my 20's. Which is bitter for me. Of course I'm bummed about being closer to 30 but more so it's because if I live to be the age my mom was when she died... I only have 20 more years on this earth. 20 more years to see my kids faces, to hear their little voices, to laugh with my husband.... only 20 more years. I automatically assume I will die around my mom's age. I don't know why, I just assume it. So to me I feel like I've hit what normal people would view as 79 years old. How can that be? I know of some things my mom would've done different. I also wonder what other things she didn't share with me. I wonder how my mom would've lived knowing at the age of 29 she only had 20 more years.
I think today will be the first day that I stop and take time to take in everything around me. Enjoy the simple things in on honor of my mom... I want to make her proud of my 20 more years.
After much thought I have decided that I do not want anymore children. When I am 48 my youngest will be 20. At that age I'm still young enough to get out and do what I want. Something I have never been able to experience. I had Skywalker at 18 years old so I never got to do anything on my own. 3 kids later, I'm realizing how important that time is. So my goal is to have all my kids old enough that I can do what I want without having to worry about a baby sitter when I am still at a semi-young age. I have explained this to Husband. He is not so keen on the idea, he would like to try for another child. I say in true Whitney Houston fashion "HELL TO THE NAW BOBBEH". Yesterday I informed him that being I am now 369 days away from turning 30 I think it's ok for him to go ahead and get snipped as I am sure that I don't want anymore kids. He then admitted that had he ever told me he would be the one to get fixed he had lied and NOBODY is touching his "jewels". We'll see about that.
He wants to try for a girl sooo bad. My thoughts are if I have a girl who acts like either one of us she won't live past 16 so what's the point?
Please say a prayer for a fellow blogger and high school classmate who's little sister was in a terrible accident Thursday evening. She's a young mother to an 8 month old little boy. This young woman is a Dr. and just started her family life. Please keep her and her family in your prayers.
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My husband is a stay at home dad. While I appreciate his ability to do this, in the mean time he is driving me insane. He's obsessed with EVERY MOVE I MAKE. I am constantly accused of doing this or that. Now I admit that yes I got a credit card without his knowledge. He found out was upset, as he told before NOT to get said credit card. I have since cancelled the card. Then smoking every once in awhile I will have a cigarette. OK every night that I go to the gym I have a cigarette. HE can't stand this... here's the thing I'm 28 years old and if I want to smoke I WILL. I don't need his constant bitching. So to shut him up I am going to have to quit this habit. Lately he's switched his gym time to going after I get off work instead of going at 10:30 at night. I am used to going to bed by myself. Ever since he's been going to bed at the same time as me I cannot get to sleep. Last night I can't sleep AGAIN so I decide to watch some of the programs I DVR'd. I got very sleepy after the show was over and decided to sleep on the couch instead of risking going to bed and waking myself up again. I'm justs falling to sleep when he comes down the stairs and accuses me of being up to something because I am sleeping on the couch. Which yes is odd for me but him being in bed with me is odd for me too! To appease him I went to bed in our bedroom. Where I got 20 questions... "Why are you trying to get me to get a job" gee I don't know because it would be nice to have the extra income. Also considering you were supposed to have a part time job BEFORE you became a stay at home dad. That was back in OCTOBER. Granted I did tell him for awhile not to worry about it because him being at home with the kids is like working 2 full time jobs. Now that he's on my case and all of a sudden thinks he can control my every move. I've decided his ass is bored and needs to get out of the house. I am going insane!
