Updated pics.....

So here are my new pictures.... let's see what you guys think. Same undies, same bra... same icky hair and icky face. I can look cute at times and no, I'm not a scurve like I look in these pictures... I look so white trashy... icky!

Good news I did order my Wii Fit and it should be arriving tomorrow!!! I can't wait!!! SO do you guys see a difference? I am now officially 8 pounds lighter. The only place I really can see a difference is in the mini thighs that go with my regular thighs. Be honest people!

1st week of January Last week of January

I can't fucking believe I'm doing this.....

OK... I said I would do it... so here they are.

My pictures of me starting in January... at 220 pounds.

I want to puke/cry/purge

Here it is... me in all my fatness

Notice my mini thighs that go with my regular thighs...

I have mom gut... FUCKING MOM GUT

THE CHINS... LOOK AT THE CHINS

Yes my underwear on backwards-- apparently my stomach got in the way of my vision and I couldn't see I had them on backwards... I can count three rolls.

Where the fuck is my neck?

Now I'm off to take pictures of me 7lbs lighter and hopefully there will be a difference!

Life with Joel

Asperger's is such a hard thing to deal with. I realize now that I haven't been dealing with it. I have been avoiding it. I ignore it. I make excuses.
Chris and I had a long discussion tonight. We handle Joel's Asperger's on two different extremes. I ignore it, baby it. I have no problem letting Joel sit in his room all day. IT's what he likes to do. I don't care if he doesn't want to hang out in the living room. Scratch that. I care but I'm on edge when he's up here because he might start doing some weird thing and then Chris will tell him to knock it off and then I'll hurt for Joel because I don't think he can help it. Whoa-talk about a run on sentence.
Chris makes Joel play with X, he makes him come out of his room. The rule is if Joel doesn't make an effort to spend time with the family then he doesn't get to play his video games on the weekend. If you take the video games away it sends Joel over the edge. Part of the Asperger's is having some OCD tendancies... Joel is majorily OCD about video games. Even MENTION you MIGHT take his games away he will go nuts. This drives both Chris and I nuts.
Chris gets frustrated because Joel doesn't want to play with X. He asks when he can be done. Chris thinks it's mean.... I understand it's part of the Asperger's. Aspie's are very selfish people. They have no empathy. If something doesn't effect them they don't care.

I say "that's just part of Aspergers"
Chris says "we can break him of it"

It's not a behavior issue it's a syndrom... you can't "break" them of it. I tell Chris it would be like getting mad at a mentally retarded person for not knowing how to do algebra.

Chris says we could at least try to learn how to help him with it. I agree, I'm calling a therapist tomorrow. So we can all go to figure out what we can do for this. I have to learn to accept it. I have to teach Joel how to deal with it.... after all he isn't going to have me there to make excuses all the time.

It all makes me so tired.

Check out this blog I came across

I don't know how to do the link thingy http://mymidmidlifecrisis.blogspot.com/
but here's my attempt at it... anyway yes I posted to win her free picture frame. Hopefully if I win I'll actually receive it. Unlike the other item I won from a contest and never received my gift. Oh well!

This little giveaway thing got me thinking. I have a whole box full of stuff that I could mail off to someone they could take what they want and then give the rest away. This would be a white elephant of sorts and I'm not going to tell you what I'm mailing.... it could be kind of fun! What do you guys think? You guys as in my whole 2 readers LOL.

Xavier throwing his flava' into James Blunt's Your Beautiful

Man he's naughty... but this is too cute to share...

weight loss don't even fucking talk to me about it. STILL at only a 7 lbs loss... but I'm still walking and my pants are still getting looser so what-ever.. it's bullshit!

Weekly weight loss update

And it's 0, 0 pounds lost... 0 pounds gained. I did put on some pants that had been getting tight and they were loose! I'm not too disappointed in myself, but I know I could've done better. I walked only ONE time last week. That is unacceptable. My goal is to drop 2 pounds this week. I have noticed my elephant ears are starting to go away.

I haven't been playing the Wii as much, I need to start doing it again but Xavier has been a real handful and OK I'm stopping making excuses. I haven't been playing because I've been lazy. Plain and simple.

In other news we're so broke. I hate it. Our insurance is costing us $100.00 more a paycheck so we literally had $30 to last us the next two weeks. We're back to Aldi's shopping. I can't wait for our tax return money.... guess I should get it FILED first. We have an appointment the first week of February. I guess I can be thankful we are at least current on our bills (not our medical bills.. those will get paid when we get tax return money) we only have one credit card with a minimum payment of $20.00. Things could be worse!

Xavier came down with the chicken pox... he just exploded!!! Talk about a crab ass, it made it so hard to feel sorry for him. He has started doing the potty training thing! ** Angels singing ** I'm so glad. He could be going to preschool but he has to be potty trained. He is so bored! He can count to 27 on his own, he recognizes every letter of the alphabet. We have these awesome Thomas the Tank Engine flash cards for letters and numbers. He loves doing them!

Here's pictures of our little Chicken Pock! These pictures don't give them enough justice!

7lbs down 93 more to go!

I thought I would update you on the weight loss. I am going to post those pictures, I just need my friend to hurry up and send them to me. Anyway after my 6lbs weight loss during week one I was quite frustrated that I only lost 1 lbs during week 2. So here we are on week 3, I am going to continue to walk 1 mile at least 3 times a week. I am going to start taking the stairs TWICE a day. I also need to work on getting more Wii time in this week. I didn't get much in last week. So we'll see how that goes. Week 2 is supposed to be a tough week... well that's what they said on "The Biggest Loser". At least I had a loss. I am frustrated that I cannot feel a difference in my clothes.

I found my wedding gown on Sunday. I definitley need to lose some back fat before the wedding. I'm starting to get the fat that's in between my shoulder blades, so it's like the fat is causing me to have a hunch back. So wrong and SO many levels. Anyway back to the wedding gown it's your typical strapless gown and it's an empire waist. It's pretty and the price is right $99.00. My friends mom is the person that does all the alterations for the shop. Well, the owner's daughter ordered a gown decided she didn't like it. So the owner told Vicki to tell me if I like it I can have it for $99.00. Out of the gowns I tried on it was my favorite! It doesn't get much better than that!

Sunday me and my friend Whitney took Joe-lo to WWE Live. This was his gift for Christmas from his Nana. (My idea, I'm a kick ass mom like that) It was actually pretty fun. The best part was the people watching. Grown men still think this shit is real. It was better than East Side Night at the Iowa State Fair. It was Mullets galore! One guy kept threatening the wrestlers that he was going to "kick their ass" he had on a black wife beater and parachute pants. I wanted to remind him that him kicking the wrestler's ass was most likely NOT in the script so such an even would not occur. Instead I pointed him out to Whitney so we could laugh at him together.

The most fun was seeing Joe-lo's face. He loved it! I will tell you this... John Cena is one hot piece of man meat. YUM!

Here's a picture of me and Joel... see the back fat between my shoulder blades.. see what I'm talking about.

Here's another pic of the three of us... Joel told me I was the best mom EVER and this was the best night of his life!

Let's get fired up!!! CPSIA is going to screw us!!!!

During these tough times and being a mother of three I often use Craigslist, Ebay, consignment shops to purchase used clothing and toys for my children. When my little one's out grow their clothing and toys I will often put their items up on Craigslist to resell.
On February 10th the government has decided to step in and make it impossible to do this. Here is a copy of the law that is going to fill our landfills with perfectly good clothing, and put local shops out of business. If reading this angers you as much as it did me I've provided a link to email your local representative to stop or amend this law!! I did it for the first time today and it was SO easy. I urge you to do the same!!!
Lindsey
http://www.apparelandfootwear.org/reports/CPSCproductsafetylawsummary080902.pdf

https://writerep.house.gov/writerep/welcome.shtml

The short version

We found out the day after Christmas that Chris' dad was cheating on his mom 3 years ago when they split.... and he's still with this woman.... and took it upon himself to introduce her to our child without our knowledge. Didn't go over too well. Future father-in-law's name is no longer welcome in our lives. Future father-in-law blames this on me...... because I told him it would be a "really cool idea for you to fuck one of your co-workers and then let Chris find out about three years later" oh and did I mention that mistress is YOUNGER THAN CHRIS...

My side of the family drama- Grandma Gamble died back in August. Aunt has been paying all her bills. Apparently Grandma Gamble had "stash" hidden in a lock box in her night stand. Aunt went over to get "stash" to pay bills and stash has been stolen and beat up box has been put back in night stand like nothing happened..... no signs of breaking and entering... must be an inside job.... Christmas day find out ex-drug addict brother's girlfriend lost her job in November and doesn't start a new one until January..... seems someone hasn't turned over the new leaf that we all thought they did.

Other than THAT Christmas drama things are running smoothly. I go wedding gown shopping on Sunday... .not looking forward to that. Simply because I'm a fat ass but I'm on a mission to change that.

I will tell you my loyal readers.. I Lindsey weighed in at 220lbs on December 29th. Please note I am only 4' 11 and 3/4ths of an inch. That's right bitches... tubby packed it on. I delivered Leo in August at 225 pounds. I'm not just obese I'm straight up MORBIDLY OBESE. I am on a mission to lose weight. I want to lose 20lbs by the wedding. You all are going to join me on this weight loss mission. I will be honest with you all. I will post my weight every Monday. As of Monday January 5th I weighed in at 214 pounds. I've been playing the hell out of the Wii we got for Christmas (and am dying to get the wii fit) watching what I'm eating, and walking on my lunch hour. I also had my girlfriend take pictures of me in my bra and underwear. I too will be posting those in all it's nasty glory! I will then post updated pictures once a month. I am not responsible if you get physically ill after viewing the pictures. Now I just need to get her to email them to me... maybe the pictures are too big bah hahahahaha